Starting when feeling far away

I discovered writing poetry in early 2021.

 

I never thought that it would lead me to start writing a book but it did.

 

After almost two years of questioning if all of this was even worth all of the trouble I am finally seeing progress.

 

When I started writing poetry, it was very personal to me and I never let anyone see it.

 

Once I started sharing my writing, I got a lot of positive feedback and it then led people to relate to me which made me feel seen and understood (best feeling ever).

 

By sharing my work, I was able to feel understood and seen, while making others feel the same, which is what matters most to me. 

 

I wanted to be the voice for people who feel as though they do not have one, or don't know how to express that voice.

 

Big accomplishments do not happen as fast and as easily as we'd like. We often hear about the loss of motivation when trying to make something of ourselves - and how some people never manage to move forward.

 

While writing my book (still is not done yet but getting there) I went through a lot of self-doubts. I had urges to give up almost every time I wrote because I felt as though it wasn't good enough or that I would never be able to finish it, so what was the point?

 

Whenever I told my mom about my doubts she would always say "Just take a break, your mind can only do so much".

 

That stuck with me.

 

Every time I would get frustrated with myself I would just remind myself that my brain most likely just needed a break.

 

The breaks either lasted days or weeks but after each one, I was able to be in the right mindset to do my best again and again.

 

Although I had hoped to have completed my book a lot sooner, patience was the best answer to my problem.

 

I look back and remember where I started to where I am now, and I am proud that my past self had the hope I needed to get where I am. This then put me in a position that had once been seen as only a slight thought or dream that was now becoming my reality.

 

Starting something may be hard because the end goal seems far away, but at least it is in sight.

 

oh and also

 

START NOW!!!! Nothing is stopping you unless you quite literally sit around and do nothing with your ideas and your passions.

 

I am able to achieve my dreams not only because I believed in myself, but because others did as well.

 

If you have no one to believe in you, not even yourself.

 

Know that I believe in you!

 

START NOW.

 

~Emily